I Know You Are All Wondering

I am ok. Well, not really... but I will be. It has all been a huge shock to find out that your whole life has been a lie. All the things that I thought were real and true have not been. I will not talk too much about what has been from here on in, because I need to spare my Daughters more angst than what they have been through.  From now on I will talk only of positive things because that is the only way forward.

The girls and I will not be staying here... we will be moving on. Plans are being made, and things are being done to accommodate this new way of life.  As I speak the renovations that I wanted so badly for so long are being finished... we will be selling our home. That is a foregone conclusion. There is more. The Daughters and I will be moving and we will be taking my parents with me. Not just down the road either. We will be heading back to Newfoundland.... the land of my ancestors, the land of my heart. For the Daughters this will be a huge upheaval. And we are not sure when exactly this will happen. We only know that the house has to be sold. That is critical to all of us moving forward in our new lives. The alpacas are for sale.... the house is for sale. Two days from now I will be heading to Olds for the last level of my Master Spinners's Program.  The Daughter's will stay with their father while I am away and they will be finishing their school year as well. When I get back, there will be packing and decisions to sell furniture and other things.  I'm sure garage sales will abound. He will be leaving for three weeks of working with the JCRs and so will Daughter #1 this year in Vernon, BC since that is where the two summer camps will be held. I am hoping that by the time they are back the house will be sold. Then I can really start in on our plans. We just have to sell the house. Everything.... everything, is contingent on that. I will talk more about our plans as they become reality. I am afraid to talk too much about what we want, for fear of not selling this house. It is too easy to lose these new dreams too and I am not sure I can take that on top of everything else.

But I am ok.... or at least I will be.... and so will we all be...

I hope.