Driven To Distraction

Sometimes I feel like I can't keep a coherent thought in my head.   I feel like my mind is fractured. For over a year I have noticed that whenever I get a good thought in my head a thought about what I can write here on my blog by the time I get the internet up and running and click on the Blogger Icon and then sign in and bring up the page for a new post, I'm hooped because the great idea that I had to write about has flown clear out of my head and has landed somewhere in Saigon.... never to be retrieved again by me or anyone even resembling me. 

Sometimes I think it is because I am doing too much but that's just plain stupid because I really am the laziest person alive.... I really don't do much.... I really do p--s away hours of opportunity. People seem to think that I do lots but in my eyes that's purely and simply a joke. Cause I don't. Do much, that is. Take for example last night... I sat after supper in the sun room with Teapot and Daughter #1 and her friend and we watched a Western movie. Instead of spinning while we were watching I just blew away a full two hours vegging in front of the boob tube without getting a darn thing done. Mindless drivel we watched and there you have it... the whole reason why I'm driven to distraction.

I love movies.... I can sit and watch endless movies. I could start in the morning and go all day if I wanted... but every now and again I do something else so I turn on CBC just for a change.  Someone once told me that our brains can only hold so much information and then when new information comes into our brains some of the old must be lost to accommodate the new.  I'm not sure I believe that because I have friends whose brains hold way more information than mine, but still with the way my brain works these days I wonder if there is not some truth to that. Loving movies just adds to the burden of brain overload, I think.

Recently I have had no less than 6 good things that I wanted to write about here and do you think I can remember any of them... not a one.  I do know that my Dad told one of his Newfy stories that I have heard a million times but when I went to write it down a little while later I couldn't remember for the life of me which one it was.  Twice I have thought about philosophizing on some subject that was in direct reference to me and blogging and when I opened up the post page it just drifted away like a leaf on the wind. Poof... if was gone and I was left there with blank page syndrome in front of me. So then I get to thinking... am I getting alzeimer's....?? At 46 years of age.... or is this some stupid brain drain because of the drugs I've had to take over the years for back related problems?  Or is this the way I always was and I was a distracted teenager that was somewhat flighty and I'm only recognizing the signs now?  Or am I truly distracted and live only in the moment with no thought of the past or present?

The brain is a wondrous thing perhaps it is just that mine needs some training and retraining. Perhaps I need a vacation.... away from the usual and similar. Why on earth would anyone even care if my mind is here or gone somewhere else?  Why should I care... Perhaps the flitting of my mind from one subject to the next just means that I'm weird.  Either way it is somewhat scary to know that my mind is distracted and I can't figure out why. And it is not just been a short time that this has been going on.


Maybe I need to be less self analytical and relax.  I think I'll go watch a movie and spin... and think about those d-mn things that I wanted to write about.....

In the meantime I managed to snag a couple of pictures of Daughter #2's t-shirt after it was finished so I will leave them with you....

... which is far more interesting than the perplexities of my mind....

Well Aren't I just full of myself thinking that my brain is perplexing!!!