Middle Aged

Sorry for being off line for a few days but I have had a problem with the keyboard on my computer.... I think the connecting wire is not connecting any more. So for several days I have not had a keyboard on which to type. I am using a borrowed keyboard for the next few days until I get to town and buy a new one.

In two days I will be another year older. You would think that this would bother me but it really doesn't. I am happy to say that I went through my mid life crisis in my thirties and got it over with then. This decade has been a decade of shedding some of my obligations so that I can finally enjoy doing the things that I want to do without obligations hanging over my head. The problem is I don't know how to say no. That's a bad thing. I don't think I'm the only one. I hear many of my friends complain about having obligations that they don't want to fill. I shed a big one this week. I have decided to give up lay reading at the church and I am stepping down from all the positions that I hold there. It is a huge burden lifted off my shoulders and for the first time in years I feel free. I'm wondering if it is because I am middle aged.

One of my friends says that as she has gotten older she is quicker to say when things p--- her off, where as when she was younger she would keep her mouth shut and let things slide when it bothered her. Perhaps that is sort of what is happening to me... maybe I'm a little more testy about giving up my time, especially when it is taken for granted.

I want to get my business up and off the ground. I want to take pleasure in my family. I want to take vacations without having to worry about who is going to fill in for me while I am gone. I want to enjoy my deck more.... and stay home with Hubby on the weekends and sip tea till 11 a.m. if I want. I, in essence, want to retire. It is a good feeling to know that you can.

April 16th is my day. I'm looking forward to being another year older and maybe a little more wiser. All is good. Being middle aged is not so bad.