Wanderlust

I'm all over the place these days. I can't seem to get myself to settle on any one thing. I'm not seeming to get a whole lot done. I do a bit here and a bit there but nothing seems to be coming off finished. It the dreaded disease. I call it wanderlust. Most people think of Wanderlust as being a disease where you want to travel all the time but for me it is more serious... wanting to travel all the time wouldn't be such a bad disease I'm thinking. For me Wanderlust is a need for my mind to wander from topic to topic, from project to project, from one thing to another without really settling with any sense to it. Usually it means that I need down time and time away from all projects.... usually it means I need sleep and lots of it.

As I may have mentioned, March break is coming soon and Hubby and I have decided to take a few days to go away with the girls and visit some family if they will have us. It will be good to get away from the day to day routine and do something different... it will be good to take just one project and focus on that. It will be good to put everything especially all the demands on my time, behind me and focus on something other than deadlines.

Deadlines seem to be the bane of my existence.... there was the big j.c. deadline which I didn't meet and I have to say it really knocked the wind out of me. Plus service quite a bit lately for church to prepare. Minutes to type and newsletters to prepare... I have two to get ready... It's not that I don't like doing any of these things... I think its just that I'm tired and coming up with ideas is tiring me out.
I look out the window and see the ice disappearing and I want to go for a walk but I feel guilty when I do because there are too many other things that I should do. You would think by now at 44 (almost 45) I'd have my sh-- together but still I'm as unfocused as any cross eyed cow.

So here I sit with my wanderlust drifting over projects I want done... projects I want to start... jobs I would like to forget and a nice clean house wouldn't hurt either.

I did go out today for a little walk.... it's good to play hookie once in a while and just enjoy. So to the Wanderlust disease that has attacked me of late.... and in the ever inimitable words of the wonderful Monty Python... "P--s off! I have work to do". And to my readers, "thanks for sticking around.... I'll try to write something interesting for a change".